This "not too good feeling"

It's hard....it's painful for me....but it have to.
Finally, I brave to told it....(thanks Vel for always support me to told it).

I don't know your really reaction....angry....hate me...or whatever..."I don't care" because I care of you.

I don't care, even you hate me...I think it's better to you hate me now...maybe it made you painful too....but I hope it awake you and make you better for the the future,...Amiin...and if it could make you better...it's really better...Now, it's not important about your feeling to me or me in people's perception (even maybe I lost my pride),....because....see you better is more important.

I really hope you mean it. It's all because I care about you....